Thoughts from an Occasional Actor (4 of 7)

This week I’m sharing some of my thoughts during a typical community theater stage production, from audition notices to stage strike.

Click here for Part 1. Part 2. Part 3.

I think: Maybe I’m not cut out for this.
When: I struggle with my lines and my songs and my blocking and my choreography—that’s all—while my fellow actors are knocking it out of the park.
Because: Although I’m working my lines, blocking, etc., as best I can, it never seems to be enough. Even after I have it all memorized, I feel like a lifeless robot regurgitating from the script.

I think: I might survive this after all.
When: During rehearsal, after I have my lines memorized and my delivery gets a few laughs from castmates.
Because: I’m becoming comfortable with the material and my peers seem to approve. Plus, the show is coming together and we all start to see how much fun it could be.

Pictures
Me as Mr. MacAfee, Bye Bye Birdie, Desert Foothills Theater, Nov. 11–21

Photos courtesy of Jeremy Andorfer/Vangelis Productions

5 thoughts on “Thoughts from an Occasional Actor (4 of 7)

  1. Matt, I appreciate your sharing of your thoughts of the whole process. To me, you seem so confident and sure of yourself when I have worked with you on stage that I didn’t think you went through the same agonies as I did in the whole process from start to finish. I’m glad I’m not the only one who struggles with the questions of “Can I do this?” or “Will they like me and what I do in audition,” etc.

    1. Thanks for writing, Mark. Agonies is right! I think most or all of us actors have self-doubt. If it doesn’t show, it’s because we hide it well with “acting.”

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